This post comes quite late but I wasn't sure if I wanted to post a photo taken with my iPhone. I had considered doing some kind of project with photos taken with my phone only, but this photo in particular has sentimental value. It isn't your typical portrait, but I think it says a lot. This shot came about as I was sitting next to my mom, having a little heart to heart with her. Our roles of parent/child are slowly switching and it is a weird adjustment. Am I doing good by her? Am I doing bad? Can I do more? Can I improve? She put her hand on mine and squeezed, telling me, "I'm ok. You don't have to worry about me." Oh but I do. It's my job now. She held my hand reassuring me that I am doing right by her, that I am doing good. Instantly, I'm taken back to being a little boy with my little hand being inside hers feeling safe and secure, but still wondering if I'm doing all I can for her. I didn't want to leave that moment. Through all she endures, it seems she's still teaching me things, even though she may not realize it. How to be strong and not give up stands out to me. I see that every day. Some days are worse than others, but life is that way. I sometimes feel that there are even little bits about dying and death thrown in, which IS part of life, but still hard to hear about and will be hard to accept. I squeezed her hand right back and as I looked at hers on top of mine, I thought it would make a good photo. We sat there quiet, her attention turned toward the TV. I took out my phone, framed the shot, and with simple touch on the screen, I captured a moment that will always mean the world to me.
Thanks mom. I love you.